You might have it bad, but someone will always have it worse than you

Why do people do things that they don't like?

For example:

You don't like to eat breakfast...? But you do anyway, and then you bitch about having breakfast. 

Shut. Up. 

Don't eat breakfast if you don't want to! Don't do things you don't like. 
That's not what I'm really talking about, I could care less about the meals you eat. I guess I'm talking more about things in general. For example, if I don't like someone, I won't associate myself with them, because...I don't like them. It makes no sense for me to invite them to hang out or for me to talk to them if I don't like them. I hate it when people invite other people to things and then bitch about it later. DON'T INVITE THEM.

I also hate it when people just bitch all the time about things that they need to be thankful for.
"I hate my job, blah blah blah"
"My bed is too small"
"I hate unloading the dishwasher"
"I hate riding the bus"
1. Be happy you have a job, you could have no job.
2. Be thankful for your bed, you could be on the floor.
3. Shut up, at least you didn't have to wash the dishes yourself.
4. Be thankful that you aren't walking.

I think people are becoming too aragant and selfish and just...annoying. People forget about how lucky they are and that sucks. 

I think the only thing I can actually remember my mom telling me when I was younger was: 
"You might have it bad, but someone will always have it worse than you"

That's so true. Some people, don't have jobs to whine about, and therefore maybe they don't have a bed which would also mean they have to wash their own dishes, if they even have those. And I will also assume that they have to walk everywhere. That kind of sucks. 

It might be weird, but be glad you have a job you hate, and be glad you can whine about your small bed and you heaven forbid if you have to unload the dishwasher for all of 2 minutes, and be happy you don't have to walk everywhere. Just be thankful.

Be thankful for everything you have.

Inspire

I hope to god I'm not the only one, but has something bad ever happened to you and that bad thing makes you want to inspire people to be good? Or maybe you've heard something like a song and that song inspires you to do something? I think that's pretty powerful. For example, there are those commercials where one person does a good thing for another person and then that person does another good thing for someone else. Those people are all getting inspired and they are also inspiring others. 

It's kind of weird but I hope I inspire people to be something good. I don't exactly know how I'm going to go about doing that...but I hope that happens because I think inspiring someone is one of the most powerful things you could to do to someone.

Crazy

Isn't it crazy how you can care about someone so much that no matter what they do to you it doesn't even matter. No matter how much they hurt you, your only upset for all of 5 minutes and then all you want is for everything to be normal again. That blows my mind...because not many people can just walk all over me and I will totally and completely forgive them. Actually, I think only 2 people could. It's crazy how much your willing to get hurt in hopes of getting back to normal, when it will never get back to normal, no matter how much you want it to. It never will because whatever happened left a scratch and that scratch left a scar and that scar won't ever go away...no matter how badly you want it to. 

This is why you need to show the people you care about that you care about them, and don't let stupid things get in the way of anything, because in the end...your gonna have regrets if you don't. 

What I Want

Wow.

That's all i have to say at this point. I don't know how many times I have to tell you, when I say something I MEAN IT. Okay? I don't say shit that I don't mean so don't mess around with me because if I say "I don't know what I would do without you, I would be lost" that translates into I don't know what I do without you, I would be lost...so don't go anywhere. 

I don't understand the point in even saying something if you don't mean it. What is the point? Did you mean anything you said? Or were you just saying it? You should try meaning what you say, and then act on what you say, all the time. Not just part of the time. You were different than everyone else, and I want to be so angry at you, but I can't because I care about you too much. I want to yell and scream and I want you to feel awful because that's how I feel. But at the same time I don't want to be hurt at all. This is so unfair of you. All I want is a huge undo button so I can pretend this never happened. You confuse me to no end. You say one thing, then you say something totally different, so what the hell do you want? I want to be mad at you, but I can't because you were the person I always turned to when something awful happened. I never thought you would be the one to cause the awful things. I want everything to go back to how it use to be, you were my rock. I'm so sick of using past tense. I want to use present tense. I want to tell people that your my best friend, I want to say that I care about you, not that I cared about you because that's a lie, I will always care about you. I mean...this is our first fight, ever. I want to say that we've only had one fight and we've been best friends for almost 3 years. That's what I want. I want this to be over, I want you to tell me everything, I want you to be sorry I want you to show that your sorry. I want you to be my rock again.

I'm sorry.

Sandwich

I would do anything for you. She wouldn't. 

Forget her and come stop me from leaving.

It sucks that people don't know when they unintentionally hurt you. 

People tell me all the time that they won't ever hurt me, well that's good that you won't ever hurt me intentionally, but unintentionally you hurt me all the time. 

I would never want to hurt my friends unintentionally or intentionally and the crappy part is I don't even know when I hurt someone by mistake so how am I suppose to fix it if they don't tell me?

Maybe when we get hurt, and it is done unintentionally, maybe...we should say something because if people say "I'll never hurt you" then I think that should count for any kind of hurt. Not just the hurt they know about.

That's the other crappy things with words, I was talking to a friend of mine about how I think people should just say what they mean and mean what they say. If I think something about you good or bad I'll tell you myself, and I'll mean it. I hate it when people say things they don't mean. And after I got into a small argument with my friend I realized that people need to not just run their mouths and say stuff, they need to back their words up with actions.If I was to say that I really missed someone, then maybe I should make plans to see them. If I don't, then maybe I didn't miss them as much as I thought. I also hate it how when words are said they are only true a little before you say it and a little after that moment. For example:

"I want a sandwich"

I wanted a sandwich before I said so, I wanted one while I said it, and I'll want one a little bit after I say it. But then I'll eventually get over my want for that sandwich whether I get it or not.

This happens all the time, not just with cravings for food but with emotions. When people say "I'll never hurt you" they meant it before they said it, while they said it, and a little bit after they said it. But how are we suppose to know when that time is up, how are we suppose to know when they move on and would hurt us? The answer is, we don't. And I kinda wish we did. And maybe when you say things like "I'll never hurt you" maybe you should show me that you wouldn't hurt me with some actions. Because I think it's too easy for people to say things that they don't mean.

Growing Up

I realized the other day that within the next 10 years I could be married maybe with a kid, maybe not, I mean it all kind of depends. But...within the next 10 years there is a very good chance that I'm going meet the person that I'm gonna  marry and have that kid with, I could already know them. That blows my mind. It scares the crap out of me because I just wanna relax and be a stupid kid right now but to think that in the next decade I could be a dumb kid having a kid? Wow. 

It's also insane that kids in my grade are getting their licenses. I remember when we all played no touch gravel tag together on the playground and now we're driving around. The idiots in my grade are driving on the freaking road, that's scary and so exciting at the same time. We're also gonna be Juniors this year, I remember when we were getting showed around the middle school, and the highschool and now we're in the home stretch of highschool. We're all gonna start looking at colleges soon if we haven't already. Life is so exciting and so scary right now and I love every second of it.

Life is hard to keep up with right now, but at the same time it's so good.

Innocence

Today I went to the park, and there were two families there that met up. Each family had a two year old, one family had a girl named Dylan and one had  a boy named Jackson. Dylan's family got there earlier than Jackson's and as soon as the two saw each other they yelled each others names and started running as fast as they could towards each other. When they finally met up it was kind of awkward, and the girl looked at her feet and then started to walk away. Jackson ran up behind her and hugged her and they began to play and did so for the rest of the day.While they were playing another girl that Jackson never met before ran up...taped him on the shoulder, and as soon as he turned around she stuck her face right in front of his and popped her head out and kissed him. Jackson kissed her back and it was pretty adorable.

This got me thinking...Jackson is only two years old, and he can get some. But it also got me thinking about how amazing it is to watch little kids interact. Its because they are full of innocence. You don't see people walking up to total strangers and kissing them because they wanted to. Little kids act on how they feel and think, it's a shame that people over the age of about 12 don't do the same. Life would be so much easier if people could just say how they feel without having to worry about being turned down or worry about what other people think. I think, when it comes to emotions and feelings people need to live like they're two years old.

Push and Pull

I get to see some friends of mine I haven't seen since elementary school. I'm so excited. It's weird how people come in and out of your life. And when you look back they left at the right time and then when they come back its like they come from nowhere...and it's perfect. I'm just really thankful for all the people in my life right now. 

Especially because I've also recently seen people force themselves out of other peoples lives and I think it's so sad. Don't force yourself out of someone's life...if your suppose to leave then you will when your suppose to. Don't jump the gun on something like that and don't be against them coming back into your life. Be thankful for the people in your life, and don't be in a hurry to get rid of them because people will constantly be leaving your life it just doesn't make sense to have people leaving all the time and then forcing more people out when those are the people you need the most. If you do push someone out of your life, pull them back before it's too late.

Question of the Day

Question #5:

Coke or Pepsi?

Sweet Summer Time

Today I hung out with a bunch of friends and it made me realize how much I love summer. It's pretty perfect, I mean...its still warm when the sun goes down, you swim all the time, there's a bunch of bonfires, music, friends, fireworks, staying out late, sleeping in late, all nighters, BBQ's, grad parties, and enough good times to last a life time. I realized how much I love being a kid today. As of right now, life is very good. 

Leap

I've never been in this position before. I have never wanted to forget about someone so badly, but at the same time all I want is to be in their life. And that's the best I can do at explaining how I feel right now. I can't really breathe and it feels like I've been stabbed in the back but worse. It's weird how much you don't know how much someone means to you until they take a step out of your life. And then it hits you like a punch to the face...and your left standing there trying to figure out what to do. I mean...am I suppose to forget about you? Yes?...How? How am I suppose to forget about you? You changed my life, I can't forget about you, it's impossible. Maybe I'm not suppose to forget about you...maybe just get over you? How?...How am I suppose to get over someone like you. Just when I think I can do it something happens and I have to start all over again. It's like walking up a mountain..finally making it to the top and then getting shoved off. It's really hard to get to the top of mountain when I keep getting pushed off. It's even harder when all I want to do is stay at the bottom and be with you. That's all I want. I never thought I would be in this position...but here I am, it feels like I'm choking and all I'm doing is typing and thinking about you and it takes my breath away, in a bad way. If this is how I get when you've only taken a step out of my life then what's going to happen to me when you take a whole leap out of my life?

I was fine before you jumped back into it. I hate you for jumping in and out of my life, it was much easier with you out of it the first time. What your doing to me is like letting a toddler lick a lollipop and then throwing it away. It leaves them frustrated, sad, and confused. That's what you're doing to me...leaving me sad, frustrated, and confused.

Cycles

I don't know how your life plays out...but mine plays out in cycles. Like, relationship wise..and kind of life in general cause when relationships in your life are going good then life in general is going good. I don't mean boyfriend/girlfriend relationships...I mean friend ones..family ones..just relationships in general.

It's like...I make new friends and I still have my current ones that survived the cycle..and then I become better friends with the new ones...months go by and we become better friends...and then from the freaking middle of nowhere someone somewhere must flip a damn switch because it seems like everyone just kind of turns into an ass hole at the same time except a select few. And everyone ditches...but then in a few weeks, months, days...they come back.

I don't get it..at all. but I'm super thankful for the people who are consistently in my life. Those are the people that really matter I think. And I also think the cycle of relationships is an excellent way to sort through the real friends and the fake ones. 

I just pretty much love the people who have always been there for me, thanks for picking me up when it seems like no one else will. And that's all I have to say about that.

Hell Or High Water For You

It blows my mind how much you can care about someone. No matter what happens or what they do to you. You'll always go through hell or high water for them. It blows my mind how badly you want them happy, even if being happy means not being with you... but then wishing that being happy meant being with you. I hate that "what if" question that always hits me no matter how hard I try to avoid it. "What if everything works out in the end?" "What if it works? What if we make it?" Sometimes I wish that I can just know how everything ends so I don't have to strain myself about it now. 

I know I shouldn't, and every time I try to talk to one of my guy friends about this they always say around the same line..."Don't worry about it! There are other guys better than him" "Don't worry, you'll find the right guy" I think it's kind of funny how differently guys and girls think about relationships. All my guy friends are so chill and they aren't worried about finding their girl. But 75% of my thoughts consist of me finding my guy. I think it's because I'm so deathly afraid of never finding anyone. Especially when I'm fairly content with people I've already found. And then I think about how I'm way to young to be worrying about this, but then I think if I don't think about this I could end up alone. 

I also think it's interesting how badly people can want things to work when they want it enough. But that's the trick...you have to want it enough..and if you don't...or if you have one little doubt then it won't work. That part kind of sucks really badly. I kinda wish I could just say "WORK OUT" and then it does, just like that. I mean...I know anything with relationships is going to be really hard and I know every relationship has its obstacles and challenges. But I want this to work out. Because I can't see myself being with anyone else, and that has to mean something...right?

It just blows my mind how much one person can change someone's life, and how much one person could want something so silly to work out so badly.

Time Flies

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday. I can't believe she's going to be 14...that blows my mind. I forget how old she is all the time, I treat her like shes my age. And on top of her turning 14 she's also going to be a Freshmen in highschool. Wow. It feels like yesterday I was going to be a Freshmen, and now I'm going to be a Junior. It's kind of funny how the slower you want time to go the faster it goes...and the faster you want time to go the slower it goes. It kinda makes me want to mess with fate and pretend that I want time to fly by when in actuality I wish it would just slow down so I can have a second to take all these changes in.

I feel like I'm growing up a lot, I feel like I look older too. That's kind of weird for me...I was looking at baby pictures earlier today and it feels like time just flies. I was also just looking at colleges for the hell of it? That freaks me out a lot. Even tho I am just checking everything out its crazy that I find myself doing that now. Growing up scares me a bit...I just like being a dumb teenager so much I hope I like being a stupid adult just as much. I probably won't tho...paying the mortgage just doesn't seem fun to me. Oh well, it's the little things in life that matter most anyway.

Good Night :)
Happy Early Birthday Maris, I love you (:

Question of the Day

Question# 4:

What is something that makes you happy? (:

[Music and my friends make me happy :)]

Life Is Too Short To Be Anything But Happy

It's really important to be thankful for the people that are in your life right now. Because things happen and people change and if you aren't thankful for the people in your life now, you'll regret it when they aren't in your life. Even if they are still in your life the relationship you have with them might change...and once it changes it will never be the same. 

The kind of sad thing about humans is I think it takes us losing something before we can fully understand how much it means to us, or how much we need to it to make it through the day. I can tell you to be thankful and to appreciate everything and everyone in your life. But I know you won't until you lose someone that you needed. 

I also think it's important for people to look at previous mistakes to help them avoid them again. A good example is breaking up. If they broke up with you or if you broke up with them, there was most likely a good reason behind it. A reason that will always be there no matter what...no matter how badly you don't want it there it is still going to be there, so don't try to go around it or pretend its not there. I don't understand why people date other people more than once...well, I know why. It's because you want it to work out, and you don't want to give up on that person just yet...which is sweet and all but that reason for the break up to even occur is still there. So odds are against you when it comes to everything working out to how it use to be. When it comes to getting back together with someone I would advise that you don't do it because you'll end up more hurt than before. It would be like cutting yourself and then not giving it chance to heal and cutting yourself again--now its going to take twice as long to heal and it hurts way more the second time. 

I can't say "be thankful" enough because I think it's so important..and I feel like saying that isn't enough, but there really isn't another way to say it. 

I guess the best way to be thankful for someone, and to be thankful for everything you have is to picture it gone...forever. Maybe once you truly do that you'll start to appreciate everything a little more. Because life is way to short to be anything but happy and at least if you appreciate the things now and see them for everything they are...if they do ever get taken away from you you'll know that you appreciated them and it won't hurt as bad.

The Little Things Matter Most

The title says it all.

I feel like sometimes guys think they have to try so hard to impress girls...I'm not sure why they feel this way seeing as how I'm a girl. But being a girl I can tell the guys that you don't have to try as hard as you think. Doing things such as calling us beautiful (we would rather be called beautiful then hot-any day), holding the door for us, telling us were pretty when we know we aren't, wanting to hug us...doing all those things on your own mean so much more to us then what you all think. Just doing anything for us on your own will earn you major points because we think it means you care and I think that's all any girl wants--a guy that will unconditionally care for her.

Enjoy today. Forget yesterday. Don't worry about tomorrow.

Learn from my regret, and truly live your life in the moment and don't worry about the future or dread on the past because what's done is done and you can't plan everything so you might as well just focus on today and the now.  I know it's hard, and I don't think I have ever taken my own advice...but I think I need to start because when you don't focus on today and you live your life worrying about the future or the past and you miss all the amazing moments in between. And it's all going to catch up with you one day, and your going to realize what you've done and regret it. 

I mean...if you don't live your life in the present then you won't enjoy it as much, even if you think you are...your not because the future is still haunting you in the back of your mind. I know life moves kind of quick and it is hard to keep up with, but focusing so much on the future will only make it go faster, so take a breather and enjoy today.

Accept the fact that things change, situations change, people change. And once they change it won't ever be the same so stop wishing it would be how it use to be because it's never going to be how it use to be. Once something happens it happens and everything from that point on is affected. 

Don't try to get everything to how it use to be. Don't try to get everything to end up a certain way. 

Enjoy today. Forget yesterday. Don't worry about tomorrow.

Question of the Day

I think my other two questions took too much thought. So.....

 Question #3:

What's your favorite color? (:

(mine's teal)

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Mess Without You

I think it's really amazing how much we can depend on someone to always be there, and how much we fall apart if they aren't there. I think people in general take other people for granted. I also think that it's really important to let the people you care about know...because what if you never get the chance to tell them because you thought that they already knew. I think it's wrong for people to assume that everyone knows how they feel about them. If I care about you, I can promise you that I will or have already told you in some way, shape, or form. If you care about someone you need to tell them or show them that you care. Never assume that someone just knows. Even if you think you've shown them maybe you should just tell them in some way because sometimes the best way to tell someone something is upfront.

I mean..picture someone right now. 

Now picture them totally out of your life. They're gone, forever. I hope you told them along the way what you wanted them to know because now you will never be able to, ever. 

That would suck so much. I hope my words inspire you to tell even just one person that you care about them and that you depended on them to make your little world complete.

Question of the Day

Read my post about being thankful if you haven't already
Question #2:

And then tell me about everything in your life that your thankful for


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Thankful

People need to be thankful for what they have in life, the big things, the small things, and the things we all take for granted. I don't think people realize how much they should be thankful until they see someone who doesn't have much to be thankful for. 

I read this article from the Ithaca Journal, a friend from my childhood wrote it. This girl is healthy for the most part, the only thing wrong with her is shes dramatic, and is 5'2" tall, at 16 years old because she has a thyroid disorder...so she pretty much will only be 5'2" her whole life. Reading this article really bothered me because I knew this girl when we were kids, a lot of people in my school knew her and she was saying in her article that everyone would pick on her cause she was the shortest person in the highschool. The whole article was about how people didn't like her because of her height, and she just kind of whined about the dumbest things. While reading I was disgusted with how this article was written because this girl was making her life seem so miserable all because of her height. She made it sound like she had terminal cancer. It was awful.

I think people need to be thankful for what they have. Is this girl really short? Yeah...but I have two step sisters who are exactly 5' and they have friends and they live regular lives and it's truly not a big deal. There are people a lot shorter and they do just fine. There are also people on the opposite side of the spectrum, I'm 5'12"...I like to say it that way because I'm not so fond of my height either, but I don't really care too much anymore. Because there are people who might have been as tall as me, and oh..they lost their legs, now they're a whopping 3 feet tall. I don't like my height, and I get picked on, but I get over it because it's kind of stupid to get all worked up over height. 

I think people get the same way about age. When people get older they don't like to tell people their age because they're embarrassed and that bothers me..because 1, it's just a number...and 2, you should be thankful to even have the ability to feel embarrassed about your age in the first place. Because a lot of people know someone who will never get the chance to feel that way because their life got cut short.

All I'm saying is be thankful for everything you have because I promise you someone else will never even have the option to be thankful for some of things you should be thankful for.