Haters Gonna Hate

Ah, the fine art of being an anonymous internet bully.

It's more challenging than what you may think...but there are only really two requirements:

First, you can't have any self confidence or 'guts' to say your opinions to the person's face.
Second, you have to be as rude and inconsiderate as your conscience will allow.

You may be wondering how this is a hard task? Because when things are anonymous everyone is a tough guy. Well the difficulty aspect comes in when the receiver decides how effective your pathetic attempts are.

They will probably fail most of the time, because there isn't anything big and scary about someone who is only a tough guy behind the keyboard. If you have an opinion about something, then put your big girl and boy pants on and say it to my face.

Everyone is entitled to their opinion and I enjoy listening to people's feedback about my blog but if all your gonna do is sit behind your keyboard and try to be a tough guy by being a pathetic prick then think again. Because I have absolutely no respect for people who can only find their balls when they're alone in their bedroom on their computer. My respect goes to the people who have the guts to voice their opinions because that means they have enough self confidence to do so.

So until you can find your self confidence, get the hell out of here.

Number One

You know that horrible 'dirt has more meaning than me' feeling? That's the worst. The feeling of just..crap. And the only thing that could fix this feeling is someone that you care about telling you something amazing.

But you know what's worse than the 'dirt has more meaning than me' feeling? The feeling you get after the person you care about makes you feel even worse. You know; when the thing that comes out of their mouth confirmed that dirt does actually have more meaning to them then you.

Yeah that sucks. Really really bad. It sucks because no one should ever feel like dirt is worth more than them, and someone shouldn't ever confirm this persons feelings. Especially when they're your number one. Because them being your number one means that they mean a lot to you. So you shouldn't have to go seeking help from numbers two and three because number one left you to crash and burn.

When your at your all time low, it's interesting who you turn to. It's interesting who you trust will be able to give you the pick-me-up you need...and then it's even more interesting when your number one lets you crash and burn because their 'busy'...and they just can't take one second...one flipping second from what they're doing to help you. And the real kicker is that they are your number one. So...aren't you suppose to be their number one also?
I mean...when someone is my number one, I make sure that I always have one ity bity second to help them with anything that may be bothering them. How hard is it to return that favor? I don't think it's too much to ask.

That's all people really want I think...people just want to be treated how they treat other people. People don't want to feel like dirt, and they don't want to feel like dirt means more than they do. People want to be loved, and respected.

How hard is that?

Comfort

I'm sick of putting myself out there just to get shut down.

I guess I'm not getting totally shut down, but I hate opening up to people completely and then getting nothing back. That totally sucks. Because when you open up to someone you naturally are hoping for them to open up a little bit in return and then when they just stay concealed your just left there standing alone, just you and all your personal fears or thoughts or feelings. And then the other person is just standing there all protected.

And the worst part of it is now the person that's standing there all protected has stuff against you. Now they know more about you then you know about them and know you are vulnerable.

I hate being vulnerable. I think everyone does...it's not a fun feeling. And this is why most people don't open up. But I feel like if someone opens up a little to you and shares their fears, and thoughts and feelings with you then the least you could do is share a little bit of yours. Because that way, no one would feel vulnerable because now you both know personal things about each other. It's a total win-win.

So...when someone is telling you about their fears, and thoughts and feelings. Don't just agree and act like you don't give a shit because even if you do we won't know because you don't act like you do. And what's the point of giving a shit if you don't even show the person that you care for them? You can't just keep those thoughts to yourself. Besides; I don't think people tell other people their problems just to be agreed with. People tell other people their problems because they want to be comforted. They want to know that their fears aren't anything to fear.

So comfort them! Don't make them more afraid then what they were before they started opening up to you.