Now, Not Then, Not Later

There are a lot of hard things that we all have to deal with when it comes to living. I think one of the the worst things would be having to make a hard decision and living with what you've chosen and being happy with that choice...you know, not regretting it at all? 

I'm bad at making choices because even though I know that I should make a decision on the present; but the past and future always help the decision along...and I think that's kind of bad. I suggest that when you have to make a decision make it on what you know at that point in time, not what might come of it, or what has happened before. Make your decision on what you know right then in there. Because I think things get messy when you stress about what will happen based on your decision...I think everything happens for a reason. So technically no matter what you decide whats suppose to happen will happen.

I don't know if you believe in that as well, but I do know that thinking that way really helps me make decisions for the now, not the then, or the later. 

Clumsy Change

First, I'll start off by saying how much I dislike drama. Even the sound of the word irritates me. Second, I'm lucky enough to say that I hardly ever have to deal with it. Third, I'll say that sometimes you have to get involved in things that you really hate for the people you care about. And that doesn't just mean stupid drama it could mean anything.

I think it's very interesting how nervous people get around "drama" some people don't even want to hear about the things going on because they "don't want to get involved". I understand that 110% but who does want to get involved with drama? Honestly, if you like drama...just, go away, go far far away. Because no one should like it, it's stressful. But people need to learn how to deal with it, even though it is stressful. Especially when it's between friends, that's the worst because two people who use to be super close now can't stand each other. Which is way more fine then what everyone makes it out to be. 

But how can it be okay that two "friends" hate each other?

People change, a lot. And people don't just change once, they change all the time. That's why it's so difficult to have a friendship for a long time...and when I say long time I'm not talking about a whole school year, I'm talking about years. Like 5 years, 10 years, 20 years. That's a long time. People are constantly changing throughout their whole life. We're always changing because things are always happening to us, if a good thing happens then maybe we get a little better, if a bad thing happens maybe we get a little worse. Sometimes big things happen and those things can really change a person. 

It sucks when people change, especially if you were close to the 'old' them. But you have to let them change, because your changing as well, so you just have to accept it.

Here's my analogy on the whole change thing:
Everyone is born in the same little shape, right into the same little mold, and we grow up, and get tossed into school. From elementary to middle school we all still have our molds on, so we're all the same still, we all fit into each others molds, and everything is perfect. Then at one point we all get tossed into highschool. Now, all of a sudden our molds get ripped off. Now all of a sudden we're expected to not all be the same, and we're heavily encouraged to become our own person. So now, all of us start stretching out a little bit, and we all become different...we all change. So now, the people that we thought we knew, we don't know anymore, so you meet new people that you will probably end up liking more than the people before. Just beware, because getting tossed into highschool is not the last time you stretch out and change. It happens when you graduate highschool, when you go to college, when  you graduate college, when you get married, when you have kids. And everywhere in between.

My point is, don't be jerks to the people who are trying to figure everything out. I'm sure they aren't doing it gracefully. I'm sure they will hurt people along the way. But it'll be your turn to figure everything out soon enough, and you'll be just as clumsy at it as the last person.

A Bit of A.D.D

Warning: This blog entry is all over the place...I'm sorry.

There's nothing like watching Glee on a rainy Sunday. It's pretty much the best. Besides playing the in rain or movie marathons of course...but watching Glee is definitely up there on the list of things to do. 

My road test is finally scheduled...I hope I pass, I'm so excited to be able to say that, it's exciting because I'm growing up and I'm seeing that I am and it's like I can't wait but I can...it's weird.  

School starts in 3 weeks, I'm gonna be a Junior and I'm also excited about that, this year just feels like it's going to be a good one. It's the only year you get to be an upperclassmen without having to think about leaving at the end of the year.

That's all I got for now, hopefully my next blog entry won't be so A.D.D

A Chance To Breathe

A lot of my friends are leaving for college and have already left pretty recently. It's sad what time and lack of communication will do to a relationship. It's kind of hard to keep a friendship in tact if you don't consistently communicate with the other person in the friendship. I think that's the worst thing when it comes to people leaving for college....the want to keep a friendship going but the hurdles you have to jump together make it very difficult. 

Another recent new thing would be...I've been hanging out with people I haven't seen in a while, or haven't hung out with in forever. It's so awesome to rekindle a friendship or to realize you had much more in common then what you thought. 

My life was super stressful the past couple of weeks and it was moving kind of quickly, I'm glad it's finally slowed down so I can breathe and take a second to enjoy it.

I Miss You

I've been out of town for almost a week now, and it's mind blowing what a week away from people you care about will do to you. My appreciation of them has increased dramatically. I just miss them. During the day I'm all good but at night I can't handle it. At night I have the most time to think cause nothing is really going on...so my mind starts racing. Sometimes I can't sleep because I'm thinking so much, I think about all the people in my life, the ones that I care about, I think about what I did that day, what I wish I did, what I wish I didn't do. It's uber intense. 

...But as I was saying about missing the people I care about?

I wish people could appreciate other people like that all the time. It's weird what being away from people will get to say and feel, and it's only been a week! I think being away from people you care about makes you say every little thought. What if people were like that all the time? That would be so intense, like in the movie 'The Invention of Lying' what if people could only tell the truth? And what if they said every thought they had? I think people should really speak their minds more often that way we aren't just spilling are guts when we miss someone, but we're doing it because we can. 

I dare you to do that for a day. Every thought you have about someone, tell them weather it's good or bad, tell them and make sure you have a reason why you think so. People should tell other people what they're thinking, because they can. Not because they miss someone or because something happened to them and it influenced them to speak up. I mean it's better to say it then not say it, but still. Live in such a way that when you think about your day right before you go to bed, you have no regrets about what you did or didn't do. 

Lucky Duck

It's interesting what people spend their time thinking about. Maybe it's....stupid drama, someone you admire, family, your favorite song, what your gonna do today, what you did yesterday, something exciting in your life, a test that your worried about, when your gonna see your friends again, how lucky some people are...But, do you ever think about how lucky you are? I think it's very easy for people to see how lucky other people are, but it's very hard for people to see how lucky they are. And some people might be reading this right now and thinking "Haley, you don't know me. But I know me, and I know that I'm not lucky in any way, shape, or form" Alright, maybe I don't know you. But I do know that your luckier than what you think. For example, you might not be lucky in ways you hope, but I bet your lucky in ways that you didn't think you were even lucky.


For example:
If you're reading this right now, you have a computer. That's pretty nice, maybe even lucky? But how is that lucky? Everyone has a computer....Except everyone doesn't have a computer, all your friends might have a computer but every single person does not. If you're reading this you have free time, that's pretty lucky. I can think of a few people who don't have any of that. Also, if you're reading this, you are most likely in your house...all safe and cozy, reading this, on your computer, during your free time. That's lucky, a house. Some people don't have those. 


I think people need to realize that things we take for granted everyday other people consider some of that stuff luck. We're "lucky" to have some of this stuff, and I think it's a shame that people don't spend some of their time thinking about that. 


So, next time your whining about not being lucky, think about all the things you have that other people don't have. Think about all the people that care about you. Truly think tho, don't be all dramatic, who cares about you? Who would be upset if you died? Those are the people that care about you. And when your done, I think you'll realize, that you are luckier then what you think.

Only One

Be careful when it comes to other people's emotions and feelings. I don't know how it is with guys, but I know exactly how it is with girls. Don't say things to a girl that you would say to any other girl...especially when it's a girl who likes you or who you like. Because when you talk to her she's going to think that she's the only one. And it's a knife to the back when she finds out that she's not...

So be careful, and only say things to her that you wouldn't say to anyone else, because the only thing she wants is to be your one and only.