Hopelessly Hopeful

I think one of the worst things someone could ever do to themselves is think of something to say that goes against their intuition...but then say it anyway. You know, that one thing that you want to say to someone but you know in the back of your head that they aren't gonna say anything to make you feel better even though you desperately want them to.

I hate how hopelessly hopeful I am all the time. Of pretty much everything too...and that's a problem. It's a problem because being hopeful of good things normally hurts me more then helps me. Which is sad because you would think that hoping for the best would be a good thing, but it's actually the worst thing. Because...not to sound like a pessimist or anything but when you hope for the best then you are just getting your hopes up for someone to say something that falls along the lines of what you had hoped for...and then when they don't it just leaves you more hopeless than before.

Which is just as equally as sad as not being able to be hopeful for good things. Because now you can't hope for good things, and you can't be hopeful for good things because your just gonna hurt yourself more in the end.

I don't want to be afraid to be hopeful. I feel like maybe if people were always truly honest and weren't afraid to tell the truth or share all of their thoughts or feelings then maybe people would be able to be hopeful...because for someone to be hopeful there must have been something said or done to give them that hope..it didn't just come to them, it was given to them.

So I guess I wish people were more honest, especially with ones they care about, or are suppose to care about because the people that care about us are the ones that are instilling these hopes in us. So it's completely stupid that they are also the ones who are shutting us down and making us feel worse than before.

I think one of the worst things you could do to yourself is go against your intuition. But one of the worst things you could do to somebody else is not give them the whole truth when they ask for it...(and probably even when they don't ask for it). Because when you don't tell somebody exactly how you feel about something then they won't ever know, and don't think that they just do...because nobody ever knows anything unless they are told. That's just how people are...and if you think that people can just pick up on hints, then your wrong, because people never pick up on hints like we would like them to.

Maybe if people stopped giving only part of the truth to the people they cared about then people like me wouldn't have to be hopelessly hopeful all the time. Because we would just know, we wouldn't have to second guess, or hope for the best, because we would have the best, and we would know that we have the best.