Lost

I haven't written a blog in just about forever, sorry about that. I hope everyone had a really good Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. Between all the food, football and family, I can't help but love it. But I didn't want to talk about Thanksgiving and gaining over 5 pounds in two days. I wanted to talk about something else.

Isn't it wild how much you can care about one person? I think it's a little scary sometimes. Being so head over heels that nothing can turn you right side up but them? That's what I'm in right now, I'm head over heels and no one can turn me right side up but you. It's been a crazy year plus a few months that I've been crazy about you and sometimes I don't even know why. Did you know that you still take my breath away? I'm so in love with you that it hurts. Sometime I miss you before you have even left, and when you come back I turn into a little kid on Christmas. I just get all bubbly and excited, I even get nervous to see you, you...my best friend. When you say that your coming to get me, I get all tingly and nervous just like I did the very first time you came to get me.

Have you ever cared about someone so much that you get afraid that they'll leave your life? I use to (still sometimes do) get like that with my mom because she means so much to me. I would be lost without her. Sometimes I feel that way about you too, I get afraid of messing everything up and you leaving my life, I get afraid because without you, I would be lost. I love you with all of my heart and I'm not afraid to let you know. I feel like I don't know how you feel sometimes. Sometimes I know, and sometimes I have no idea, and I just have to kind of...guess. I don't want to guess anymore. I want you to tell me exactly how you feel about me, whenever you think about how you feel about me. And I don't care if it's every five minutes...I will never get sick of hearing that. I'm sorry if I'm annoying to you, when it comes to all of this, but I am a girl...and every girl needs to be reminded that she is cared for, beautiful, and loved. Girls will never get sick of being reminded about things like that. Because, girls are very forgetful, and pretty stupid when it comes to stuff like this. We worry about the little things that we should pay no attention to, and we build up stories in our heads when we go unreminded for a certain amount of time.

So...if you could please bare with me, and my stupid girl stuff, what would be pretty amazing. Because I love you too much for you to leave me here; lost.